Things you forgot

I’ve wasted a ridiculous number of hours in the past two days reading old logs. And not old weblogs, for once… but old instant messaging logs. I found a CD where I burned all the logs I had from my DeadAIM (lol) and Trillian days… like circa 2002 - 2005.

It’s really strange to go back and re-read these logs and discover … a lot of things I had forgotten. Some of the memories tickle at my brain… like insertions of people’s names randomly into a conversation, to brink them, or old Away messages (“Polly wanna warcracker?”), whereas others made me feel like I was reading the transcripts of strangers.

And there were some conversations that made my blood freeze in a sort of terrified astonishment because they were so intensely personal. And it was startling because they were with people that I really don’t remember getting so personal with.

So much drama and frustration! I know that the masks have gotten to be more durable as I’ve gotten older, but I really didn’t remember how serious the cracks sometimes were. I like to think I avoided a lot of the needless pain and suffering that besets a lot of teenagers as they muddle through life, but it turns out there were still a fair number of incidents in which a little more maturity would have maybe been a godsend.

Then again, maybe not. Who knows. I’m grateful, at least, that some of my currently enduring friendships that were forged and tempered in this time period were not broken by the sometimes brutal honesty.

Truth be told, though, there’s a part of me that laments the fact that I — and maybe others — have grown to acknowledge that it’s not always best to be completely honest. Or, rather, that’s not quite right… perhaps it is “best” to always be honest, but since the truth is not always the most painless route, maturity demands that we suck it up and avoid confrontation.

Which is unfortunate, because I’ve always been a fan of emotional discharges. The positive ones, of course, but maybe you can’t get those if you’re not willing to risk the occasional negative one too? Hm.

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Context is overrated.

Quadoshock: TRYPHONESEX

lloydinmaui: lol. are you sure? ;p

Quadoshock: look at it

lloydinmaui: Makes sense. But why on earth would Dev choose such a phrase?

Quadoshock: in engineering, the most elegant solution is usually right

Quadoshock: it makes you go >_>

Quadoshock: at least, I can imagine Kass giving the biggest sideward look ever

lloydinmaui: Well, Dev says that's not it. But it's "hilarious"

Quadoshock: oh, hahaha

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Want to know what web was like … way back when?

… before Twitter and Facebook …

… and weblog comments …

… and like/dislike/stumbleupon/delicious/etc buttons…

… and even phpBB2 …

… there were guest books.

The saddest bit is that I found these again because I was sifting through my AOL e-mail and happened to notice an e-mail from Dreambook, which made me go “omg that service is still running!?”

Of course it was spam, rather than a legitimate sign. Man those guys will post to ANYthing. >_>

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Happy birthday, Damien.

He would have been 34, I think.

Did you know, dear Damien, that I’ve had your old Manila log sitting as a text file on my laptop’s desktop for … quite some time now? I’m always meaning to make an MT log to which I can import all these to… and then make it your original log’s colors, so we always have a bit of you to look back on, but I can’t quite get around to it for whatever reason.

But today, since it was your birthday, I popped it open to read a little. You don’t mind if I share one of your old entries with everyone else, do you? Dumb question, I know… you never hesitated to share yourself if it would bring smiles to people’s faces.

So here’s an entry, with … some formatting preserved. Damien’s log used to sport a navy blue background and white text… and he was inexplicably fond of font tags to change colors and sizes. Well, not that inexplicable, I guess… he’d go to any length to express himself.

The tidbit at the end after the hr is not part of the same entry, but I included it anyway, because … … well, because. ;x

Sunday, Middle of the Weekend!! :-D

(10:20)

All weekends should be three days. I never seem fully recharged after only two. And four is too long because Monday tends to hit harder after an extended period of off-goofing. Three tends to feel JUSSST right. Of course, to do that and maintain some sort of economic momentum, maybe an eight-day week is in order… I have some serious thinking to do for when I take over the world, it seems.

So today I to go to Kasstro Valley to hang out with perhaps the single most generous family I’ve ever had the honor of knowing. And supposedly, I’ll have the honor of meeting the one they call Vishnu, the Running Shadow, the Free Radical. Maybe I’ll get to meet Quack Dosho too. We shall see.

(Shoot…gotta finish soon…they’re all logging on, and if they get me chatting, there’s no WAY I’ll leave on time….wait…kill AIM. BRILLIANT.)

Well, I should probably get ready. I will most likely not be updating this until I get back in the evening. Until then!

So THAT’S the Man Behind the Mystery….

(ashitano 0:15)

Wow.

It was really an honor to get a chance to shake the hand of the man to whom everyone who is reading this looks up. (Probably, if he’s not too blinded by a silly desire to remain humble, even the man himself.)

He’s got this aura about him and a quiet way of expression that makes it so that one can respect him EASILY. And he’s got that disarming smile so that despite your admiration you don’t feel required to take one knee and bow your head when you speak to him.

He’s also quite good at Taboo. We didn’t actually PLAY the game, but each of us took turns giving descriptions so that the others could guess. (“Others” includes, but is not necessarily limited to, Spark, Quad, me, and sometimes Kasspa.)

So what happened today? I got to Kassland on TIME for a change…warmed up on the piano, and was still warming up when Kass and her mom returned with Lloyd. Since I was already in place, I guess it was natural for the first event of the afternoon to be my entertainment of them. Nah. After lunch.

I’ve said enough of the kitchen wizardry of Kassmom. I don’t understand how she decides what to cook or how to cook it, because when you’re Kassmom, you simply have SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS of doing things right!! (With the possible exception of the way you might choose to honor the words “no, I’m full.”)

Lunch was great, after which I serenaded the lot of them with what piano skills I could muster. Then, using that Tool-o’-the-Devil Clavinova, we listened to some of the many MIDIs in Kass’s collection. (I call it the tool of the devil, because I know that if I had one I’d NEVER GET OFF it….) Then it was the aforementioned informal Taboo session, then DDR. Then dinner. Then cards. Ah yes, cards.

We played a game called Entrelevant. Actually the game doesn’t have a name, so that’s why I’m calling it that, so that when someone asks, I can quickly say “The name is Entrelevant.” Fun, fun game. Even a little chaotic. Kass, the Mastermind, won…but I put up a valiant fight and came in second. Kasspa is brutal…my my my. How is he brutal? See, the idea of the game is to get EXACTLY a certain number of tricks. Taking too many is bad; taking too few is worse. If you miscalculate and accidentally take that extra trick, well each trick you take thereafter really doesn’t hurt! And every trick you take is one less that is available for the other players! So Kasspa, upon winning that unwanted trick, would just eat up all the tricks he could, making the lives of the other players miserable. It’s a good strategy, but oh so ruthless. Spark had to bid us farewell before the game was over, but Kassmom took over for him and did quite well.

Then we played blackjack. I was dealer. Kasspa is, again, very good at the game. He was helping to coach the other people. Kassmom seemed to default to “hit” unless she had, like, 19. And she sure was a King magnet!! :-)

So, the day was fun, and it was good to get a chance to meet Lloyd. We spoke some over the meals, and at a few other opportunities when the mayhem of the afternoon’s activities subsided somewhat. It was also good to see Spark again. I regret not having the chance to meet Quad. But hey, life trudges on.

And thanks again to the whole family of Kass for their continued hospitality. And to think, all I can do in return is allow them to keep my camera and music books until the next time I see them. (Voops.)

At least I made no wrong turns on the ride home this time. :-| So then….time to turn in. I think tomorrow will be more sightseeing, and I’m expecting a phone call in the morning. So gooooooodnight.

Countdown to Damien’s return to New Jersey:    7 days


Trev is a nut. Because he ruthlessly oppresses my people, the shopping carts. Kidnaps them from their homes and hurls them from high places…and why? So he can revel in the mangling of their steel frames. One of these days, I will liberate all the shopping carts of the world and we will march.

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Better than I remember

WOLLINDER (wollinder)
hey guys… I forgot where to find the master plan, can someone help?

APPLESAUCEYUM (applesauceYUM)
stupid NOOB We dont get access to that!

THERESAHOLEINTHESKY (TheresAHoleInTheSky)
Yeah, only the head honcho can access the master plan right now. He’ll tell us novices what to do when the time is right…

OMGIKILLEDKENNY (OMGIKilledKenny)
couldnt we access it once upon a time?? lik with a clue

PROXINNO2 (ProxinNo2)
we used to be able to see it at /master_plan/ but then we got a couple more members and Rorzehnk locked it for himself only and (he says) “anyone smart enough to get into it”. he gave the following so ppl could guess, but i dont think anyone has…

String phrase = ????????????;
// encircles the place where
// one can freely speak
// their mind

public String getPwd(String phrase) {
String pwd = "";

  for (int i = 0; i < phrase.length(); i += 11) {
     char temp = phrase.charAt(i);
     if (isAVowelOrSpace(temp))
        pwd += phrase.charAt(i + 1);
     else
        pwd += temp;
  }   

  return pwd;

}

again, tho, unless you figure it out… only rorzehnk can access it

THERESAHOLEINTHESKY
Man, what is that stuff? Looks like BASIC or something.

APPLESAUCEYUM
wat is BASIC

RORZEHNK (rorzehnk)
WOLLINDER. HOW DARE YOU.

OMGIKILLEDKENNY
er wat did he do????????

RORZEHNK
Someone has stolen the master plan. Deleted our only copy of it. All there is now is a single piece of it left. I can only assume it was wollinder who did it.

THERESAHOLEINTHESKY
Busteeeeeeed…

PROXINNO2
….. dude if I had known he was gonna do that… wollinder, where are you? what happened? did you do this?

OMGIKILLEDKENNY
OMG KICK HIM OUT HE”S A TRAITOR!!!!!!!

RORZEHNK
I intend to if he does not come back and explain himself immediately.

WOLLINDER
OMG GUYS I”M SO SORRY that person who posted the first post is not even me!! someone hacked my account and posted as me, i think they were trying to get the plans and they pretended they were me to get the info >_< Im so sorry!!

PROXINNO2
….. nice. now what?

RORZEHNK
wollinder… I suggest you fix this. Immediately. If you do not, there will be Dire Consequences.

WOLLINDER
shit

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The official "introduce yourself" thread

From TIC 2006.

I had business that required me to go back and read this thread; thought I would link it for everyone to indulge in and remember (and possibly be horrified by ;x ).

You guys should all be so very proud of who you were and who you’ve come to be.

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