kismetism

Talk about your low key New Year. We spent it watching the countdown on Manda’s television and playing Bang… probably some of the more aggressive games I’ve ever participated in. >_>

Lately I’ve been busy, but only socially… have just been visiting with friends and family… and family friends. My extended family has been overrun with young children (brother, cousin, and another cousin)… which can sometimes be amusing, but is mostly just sort of terrifying to me. It makes me feel irritated because they squeal and pout and don’t know how to behave themselves. It makes me scared because they clamber up and down the stairs at breakneck paces and I’ll hear random crashing noises when I’m locked up in my room.

It makes me feel old because while I have not been “the baby” of the family in many years, I was still always “the youngest”.

As far as life is concerned, I’m still floundering. Getting a job is now the priority and though I have a small pile of bookmarks to positions I’ll be throwing applications at, I really have no idea where I might end up in the near future. Combined with the fact that I’d still like to get my own game off the ground and my mother’s strange circus of a side business that she wants to start, things look more uncertain than ever. Materially, anyway.

I re-read last year’s New Years log and, for once, I remember exactly how I was feeling back then and I am beyond grateful that I no longer feel so emotionally sapped. Still not out of the woods yet, but at least things aren’t looking so desolate. >_>

Anyway… yeah. First, find a job. Second, move out. (Sorry, Mom, there’s no way I’m staying here for longer than necessary.)

And when that’s all settled, get a cat. Yes, that is totally going to be my New Year’s Resolution. Screw “losing weight” and screw “getting more sleep”. If I don’t have a cat by the end of this year, then you can all say that I fail life, okay?

(well, okay, I wouldn’t mind if I lost twenty pounds, too. that’ll be my backup resolution. XP )